I have been thinking about love all day today. It started with a conversation, a friend was noticing a change in their life. Things felt lighter, brighter, and just all around more joyful. As I listened I began to see how the flow of love is contagious, a strange analogy, but much like the flu. We not only share sickness with one another but we also share joy, happiness and love. I began to remember when I wasn't as open to the flow of this powerful energy. I used to spend alot of time hoarding my love, protecting myself, like a dog with a bone. I began to ask for assistance in helping me to open my heart and allow this flow to have the freedom that was needed. When we make a request to Spirit things begin to happen, mysterious things, powerful things, and yes....sometimes scary things if you aren't prepared. Once I made this request people and experiences began to show up that I had no idea how to relate to. These people and experiences slowly began to reveal the walls that were built up around my heart. Some of these walls were old ways of thinking about relationship, some were old woundings, some were family of origin patterns that needed some reflection. When I originally asked for Divine assistance it felt like such a monumental task, I felt so withdraw I didn't believe a dramatic change was possible.
Soon I began to notice that I was feeling drawn to many people. Realizing this is often how love shows up, it begins in the root chakra as shakti energy or sexual energy. This really freaked me out at first, I had no idea where to file these feelings. I'm a happily married woman and to all of sudden begin to have what I thought were in appropriate feelings for other people, male or female didn't seem right somehow. Through some reflection and conversions with people that had alot more experience in this arena it became clear that this was just apart of the process. I quickly understood why there are ashrams and nunneries.
As our consciousness begins to lift and we begin to see God in everyone we fall in love. Its our natural state. I spoke to my sister once about this and she just kept saying to keep my feet on the ground, not to loose my head into this energy. It is intoxicating and beautiful but it must be respected. If misunderstood or misused it can be as destructive as it is healing. True unconditional love demands truth and authenticity, there is no room for ego. All I can say at this point is that I'm not scared of it anymore, I've given up trying to control it. I bath in it, drink it in and fill every part of myself with this love. The more I am taught and the more I learn the more open my heart feels.
As I reflect on this spiral earth walk I am beyond grateful. There are people every day that teach me what true love really means, who expand my perspective beyond a narrow view to better understand the truth of own nature. It isn't about having expectations of those around you to be the way you want them to be, its about learning to love everyone for who they really are. Supporting one another in our quest for personal truth that is unique to each individual. This isn't easy but it's beautiful and when we commit to showing up for each other in this way the changes that are possible are beyond our wildest imaginations.
Let us soften our hearts together, let us care for each others well being selflessly and with courage. Fear no loss for we have everything we could ever need within us. When faced with challenges relax and let go, be not the driver of our lives but the passenger navigating with Spirit at the helm. Let us surrender to the truth of our own Divinity.
