Distraction in action

Well to say I have been distracted recently would be an understatement of grand proportions, seriously. Maya, or illusion has been in full effect as of recent and it was only this morning that some clarity has finally decided to visit me again. When this happens it feels like I'm having an out of body experience. Why? You may ask, well it comes down to one thing and one thing only. We tried to buy a house that wasn't meant for us. Period.

Sometime when I'm engaged in material world situations like this I can forget to honor the strong communication that Source has for me in each an every moment. There hasn't been a time I can remember that I haven't been totally and completely supported by The Creator through subtle and not so subtle promptings, showing me the path best suited to full cooperation with my personal karma. I just got done trying to argue with the Truth. Funny how I'm tired and a little hung over from the whole experience.

Resistance is a feeling that I have learned generally shows up when we are in conflict with right action. When something in our lives isn't lining up with our true authenticity. When this shows up for me I get very tired, like I could fall asleep any where I may find myself. And for those of you who know me, well....I'm a bit high energy and that doesn't really fit my temperament. This resistance kept cropping up, I would want to fall asleep at parties, at my desk, in the car and at the bank. Very inconvenient to say the least. And possibly offensive to those I'm spend my time with, nothing says I'm interested in what you have to say then dozing off.

I have known for weeks now that the house we put an on offer on wasn't the one for us. Its like getting engaged to the guy that your parents like because he has a good job, he dresses nice and is stable but he is totally boring in ALL the other departments. No freak between the sheets if you know what I mean. So it took us until we were walking down the isle before we realized that this is not the guy, and as your parents look lovingly back at you with such adornment at the high quality amount of settling that you have chosen for your life you turn heel and run screaming in other direction out into the street to meet the freedom that will truly supply you with the grace that was waiting all along.

Is that moment a difficult one? Yes. Did you somehow know you were going to do it just like that all along. Yup. Are you going to have to face the disappointment of your wedding planner, indeed. Nothing matters anymore when you know in your heart that you have chosen the right path. The feeling of joy and gratitude is beyond any fear or resistance to what must occur to come into alignment with Source.

So, I'm back and finally in alignment once again. Sorry for the quiet but when I get into places like that I generally tend to go into a bit of hole and I don't even realize it when its happening. My diet goes in the crapper, I drink too much, I get flaky with commitments and then I get a cold sore. Check, check, check and check. Yay! Maybe one day I will learn to listen and fight for the little voice that is always on my side showing me the way. This quote pretty much sums it up for me: "What is enlightenment? Absolute cooperation with the inevitable." Quote by Anthony Dunella a Jesuit priest. Another few words that come to mind....its always darkest before the dawn.

So all of you out there ignoring your little voice. Quit it. Follow your instincts and have no fear. The world will be waiting with a pat on the back once the right choice has been made. Amen.